Anger

Lately I've been unbelievably angry. Even the tiniest thing makes me want rip everyone's head off. My mother was sick for a couple of days and I tried to help her as much as I could. But of course she had to complain about literally everything. This week I should have gone back to university [...]

30

One done. One more to go. I took one of the two exams I've been studying for and I got 30. (FYI, It's the highest mark. I don't know how the other universities in the world use as a scale). It was an oral exam about a 17th century poet, John Donne, and for some [...]

November TBR 2017

I don't know why I am doing this because I know I won't be able to stick to it, but here I am again with another TBR. I have been reading Stephen King's "It" for the past weeks and I'm still only half-way throught it. It's soooooo long and scary and disgusting AND so creepy. [...]

I did it!

I passed my english exam. I've literally just found out! I ran to my mom sobbing and mumbling: "I passed the exam! I got a 28/30!" After that, I stood there for 10 minutes sheding litres and litres of tears. My mom and I talked some more, about my uni life and the choices I [...]

Hugging

Today my mom hugged me. And not in a congratulatory "Happy Birthday" or "Happy New Year" way. We hadn't hugged like that since that morning in high school, when I basically had a breakdown in the bathroom. This time, we stumbled upon each other in the kitchen and she hugged me. So of course, I've [...]

Trouble at Uni, exams and breakdowns

I don't even know where to start. Basically I've been studying for a months and a half for absolutely NOTHING. A couple of weeks ago, I logged into my uni account to book my english exam. And I made a surprising discovery. Back in June I wrote this post about the fact that I didn't [...]

September Goals 2017

I saw this wonderful post by Victoria (Doodles and Scraps) about her August Wrap-up and the goals she has set for the months of September. So I decided to use this as inspiration for my post. It's the 1st of September as I am writing this. I've spent the morning watching "Harry Potter and the [...]

It’s back

I am terrified that my "dark times" are coming back. I've been studying to take my exams again and although it is going okay, I have this horrible feeling that what happened last year is going to represent itself on September. I was weak, I cried for everything and going out felt like someone was [...]

Failure

I was hoping to pass at least one exam but I didn't. I did two and I didn't pass either of them. Frankly I don't know what to do. I thought I was strong enough but apparently this has set me back. I don't deal well with failure. It is something that detroys me from [...]

Missing two trains, Univeristy stuff and headaches

On Wednesday, I had the worst day. It was really bad. Weirdly enough, mentally, I was almost ok. But let's start from the beginning: I emailed a few of my university professor in order to get the materials to study for my exams and so I had to go to Uni and actually talk to [...]

Taking a Break

I briefly mentioned my "feeling down period" in a previous post about Friends, but I never actually explained anything. I don't feel ready to share everything right now... I kind of think that if I actually talk about it, I would FEEL it and BAM! I'll be a mess again. Because for the past month, [...]

First Year At Uni

I have only written reviews so far and entering the "personal" sphere scares the shit out of me. In a week, my Uni courses start again. I'm still confused about how I feel about it. I am a student at Ca' Foscari University in Venice. I'm studying "Lingua, Civiltà e scienze del Linguaggio" which is [...]