Anger

Lately I’ve been unbelievably angry.

Even the tiniest thing makes me want rip everyone’s head off. My mother was sick for a couple of days and I tried to help her as much as I could. But of course she had to complain about literally everything.

This week I should have gone back to university but I wanted to take another week for myself, relax, get into the mindset of going to Venice almost everyday but people had other plans.

They asked me to do stuff, go outside of the house, go grocery shopping and more. I just wanted to have a nice morning to myself, drown in books and TV shows and not think about the imminent start of the semester.

And yesterday I found out my boss put on the internet a video of me speaking in English and introducing myself. I was literally shaking. Being on camera puts me into a vortex of straight-up misery. It is my actual nightmare and filming it gave me nightmares for days.

Things piled up on top of each other and I will explode in the forseeable future.

I’ll go watch Brooklyn Nine Nine now. It’s the only thing that calms me down.

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xxx

Georgia

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30

One done. One more to go.

I took one of the two exams I’ve been studying for and I got 30.

(FYI, It’s the highest mark. I don’t know how the other universities in the world use as a scale).

It was an oral exam about a 17th century poet, John Donne, and for some reasons Shakespeare’s King Lear.

I was such a nervous rack in the days before the exam! I had gigantic spots on my face and my back, I felt a huge weight on my chest that made breathing normally a little bit difficult.

I haven’t had the best university experience. Due to a variety of personal problems and struggles. I’ve dedicated a large portion of this blog to that and I’ll leave the links at the end of this post if you want to check them out.

But, yeah…. I did it! And I didn’t even cry! NOT FUCKING ONCE!

I wasn’t expecting such a good mark but I’m proud of myself. Yes, I’m saying it. I am proud of what I’ve accomplished.Risultati immagini per lorelai i despise academics gif

But it has put me in a happier and more willing mood to continue my academic career even if, as Lorelai Gilmore eloquently put it, I despise academics.

I hope I’ll keep this up and I won’t fall in the spiral that brought me down last time.

Anyway… I GOT 30!!!!!!!!!!



Here is the list of all my uni related posts. Most include some sort of mental breakdown. You’ve been warned!

21st Sept 2016 – First Year At Uni

6th Dec 2016 – Taking a Break

9th March 2017 – Letting It All Out

15th April 2017 – Missing Two Trains, University Stuff and headaches

19th June 2017 – Failure

8th Aug 2017 – It’s Back

9th Sept 2017 – Trouble at Uni, exams and breakdown

 

November TBR 2017

I don’t know why I am doing this because I know I won’t be able to stick to it, but here I am again with another TBR.

I have been reading Stephen King’s “It” for the past weeks and I’m still only half-way throught it. It’s soooooo long and scary and disgusting AND so creepy.

But I want to read more diverse stories by diverse authors, I want to get to know different lifestyles! Also, since I am studying literature at university I need to expand my knowledge.

This month I won’t have much time so read for pleasure, but I’ll see what I can do. I am going to spend countless hours on a train back and forth from Venice, so I better start reading!

And without much further ado, let’s get into my November TBR:

UNIVERSITY LIST:

 

For my last literature exam I have to read “Othello” and I loved it. I didn’t expect it to, but I did and I am pretty excited to get my hands of these two other plays. On the other hand, I am not looking forward to Dunne’s collection of poetry. Renaissane poetry is not something I am particularly fond of, but it’s mandatory so I have to.

Moreover, I found the Royal Shakespeare Comapany’s adaptation of both “King Lear” and “Richard II” on DVD and I’m over the moon. 3 hours of David Tennant, baby!!!!


PERSONAL LIST:

I’ve heard wonderful reviews of this book and I cannot wait to read it!!

For those who aren’t familiar with it, it’s about Starr, a young 16-year-old girl who witnesses her childhood best friend (an unarmed black boy) being killed in a fatal shooting by the police.

It’s a book about race, loss, injustice, tragedy and more.

As soon as I finish “It”, this one will be the first I’ll pick up.


This summer I read “Dante and Aristotle discover the secrets of the universe” and naturally I had to check out Saenz’s new book. I love how fast paced his books are and the lovely stories the author narrates.

The books is about Sal and his life. He was adopted by a gay father and he is perfectly content with his loving family. But his previous life haunts him and it forces him to confront his feelings.

I can’t wait to read this and hopefully I’ll love it just as much as the previous one.


I have always disliked poetry, even since I was in elementary school. But recently I have started reading modern poets and I am so interested in deepening this newfound fascination of mine.

I read “Milk and Honey” and “The Sun and Her Sunflowers” by Rupi Kaur and since this book is in the opening rounds of Goodreads’ Choice Award 2017, I decided to give it a go.

I know nothing about it, but to me the title is pretty self-explanatory. It’s very short and I hope to get to it as soon as possible.


I am pretty happy about my selection of books this month. I wanted to have a mix of physical, ebooks and audiobooks so I could read (or listen to) as much as I could even while I do the laundry or clean the kitchen. Sadly, I wasn’t able to. I only have digital books and I hate it. Having an actual book in your hands makes for such a better reading experience.

Let me know if you’ve read them or if you have recommendations.

Xxx

Georgia

I did it!

I passed my english exam.

I’ve literally just found out! I ran to my mom sobbing and mumbling: “I passed the exam! I got a 28/30!”

After that, I stood there for 10 minutes sheding litres and litres of tears. My mom and I talked some more, about my uni life and the choices I have to make in the next months.

Aside from that, I texted my friend to meet me saturday for our traditional celebratory smoothie and I am trying to be more positive. Tomorrow I’m supposed to go to a class and it’s killing me. I have to attend this one, because it’s about poetry in the 16th Century. SO BORING. I’m not really interested in that. I was hoping in more victorian books.

Today I’m going to pay my fee and go for a driving lesson. Despite my numbness regarding everything, I am tying to survive.