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Attention!!! This post contains some strong language and swear words!

I hadn’t cried in quite a long time. At least for my standards.
But I’ve never cried out of anger. Repressed anger.
And possibly something help. I’ve been feeling terrible these couple of days, really really down. And it hasn’t happened in at less a couple of months. I had managed to get out of it. I even did two fucking exams. Just 6 months ago I cried just by thinking of university. I was getting better for fuck’s sake.

I don’t want to sound obnoxious but in the family life, I am pretty much invisible and soooooo low key. I’m not expensive, I don’t ask for money, I don’t go to parties, my parent don’t have to drive me around, I keep quiet, I do what they ask me to. I basically have no life. But I’m sure you already knew that.

But for the first time in ages I was really really interested in something: I wanted to see my favourite mystery novel author at a bookstore where he is presenting his lastest masterpiece. (Which is set in Italy BTW).

Sadly taking the train isn’t an option. The city is an hour away from where I live and hte bookstore is at a 25 minutes distance from the station. The city is said to be VERY dangerous at night. Especially for a women. (Fuck those creeps that prevent us from ever enjoying ourselves without the fear of been attacked).

So I asked my mom for help and she said she wasn’t comfortable driving me to this city at night (the event starts at 9PM) and that I should ask my father.

So I did! And he checked his calendar and said yes! I seriously thought it was a miracle. He is NEVER free. Let me say this: we don’t have a great relationship. We don’t usually talk to each other, aside from “are you coming home to lunch?” from me and “tell mom I’ll be late” from him.

For a day and a half, I was over the moon. This was my THIRD try to see the author. THIRD. And both times I was not allowed to go. (I still throw it in my mother’s face every chance I get)

Then when we were at dinner Saturday, I found out that he actually wasn’t free. That he had a gig he didn’t remember of.
So I looked at him with a glare that would have incenerated him and said: “I’ll fucking kill you”. It got resolved fairly quickly as they moved the date!

I was so fucking naive to even click the “I will attend” button on the event of Facebook and I was literally jumping up and down.
Until Sunday afternoon. I am not kidding. This is what actually happened.
I might sound like a spoiled child and I don’t fucking care. I’ve wanted to meet the author and get his autograph since I was 15. That’s it. I literally haven’t asked anything else.

Back to the story, my father came in and told me he has orchestra rehearsals that day and that he couldn’t take me.

I had tears in my eyes but frankly, I didn’t want him to see me cry. He knows nothing about what I have been going through this past year and I sincerely hope my mother has not spilled the beans or I’ll fucking lose it.
Anyway. I just looked at him and said: “do not ever talk to me again”.
And then I just yelled at him in front of my grandparent. Great! 😒🙄

What really hurt me wasn’t that he can’t take him. Otherwise I would have got angry with my mother as well. It’s the illusion he let me have for that glorious day and 1/2. I fooled him into taking him, making him feel like the “cool” parent who wants to right a wrong made by his wife 5 years ago. I played him like a fucking idiot. But apparently I got played back.
What really angered me is that his things and interests always come first. He does whatever the fuck he wants. I make lunch, he says he’s not hungry. He heats up dinner once and then shouts that nobody is helping him clean out. And who the fuck helped me?
Also, how come he didn’t say: “I have to take my daughter to see her favourite author.” Or “can we do it earlier? I have plans with my daughter”.
I’m not asking him to talk to me everyday or know what exams I have or what I am doing with my life. For once, I asked for something. 4 hours of his life.

But apparently, I’m not important enough.

March Favourites 2017

I haven’t had the greatest month. Not at all.

Life wise, I started studying for my driving license for the 5th time. I contacted my professors at Uni for material for my exams. I cried and freaked out about it for days, but nevermind. I’ve been anxious for weeks and not sleeping very well. And felt like shit for the longest time. But it’s okay!!! I’m not extremely sad! *said in the most sarcastic voice ever*

To get my morale up, I started writing down all of the things I like this month.  But then I happily realized that the list was longer than expected. Soooo, I’ll be splitting them in two and in this post, I’ll focus on the general stuff and the next one will be all about beauty.

Enough blabbing, let’s get on with it.

  • Stationery clips and Stabilo Pen

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I got these clips at “Tiger” on September and until recently I had lost them! I basically took apart my bedroom, searched everywhere in the house and of course my dad had hidden them on top of the cabinet in the kitchen. COME ON. But I recently found them and I’ve been using them for literally everything. They are absolutely adorable and unbelievable cheap. I’m in love.

On the other hand,  I stole this pen from my sister only to figure out that it was actually my mom’s and that she was pretty angry she lost it. I’m still keeping it because it’s amazing. And I love how my handwriting turns out. I’m so going to re-purchase this and if there are, I’m without a doubt getting it in different colours.

  • Gilmore Girls Fanfictions

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I’m a Fanfiction nut. I have 2 apps and I even paid 0.99€ for the premium version of one. And I have no regrets. I have almost 400 stories in my favourites and I have read A LOT OF THEM multiple times. But since I got obsessed with Gilmore Girls and in particular Jess and Rory, I’ve been basically reading the entire section on FanFiction.net. Here is a selection of the ones I’ve most enjoyed: Stop Running, They Say it isn’t easy, The Runaways, The KidThe Kid Some of them are filled with clichés and predictable plots, but honestly: who fucking cares.

  • Netflix

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March marked the wonderful beginning of my relationship with Netflix. And so far, it’s been great. There are a lot of shows that are missing or aren’t complete but I’ve been loving it. I’ve binge-watched all 6 seasons of New Girl, started watching “Grace and Frankie”, skipped from one episode to another of “Friend” and I have the possibility of choosing between 7 seasons and the Year in the Life special of Gilmore Girls.

I’ve been really into stand up comedy recently and Aziz Ansari and Trevor Noah are SPECTACULAR. Highly recommend.

  • This is Us  – Last three episodes marathon

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I’ll be brief because I’ll start crying. I saved the last three episodes until the finale came out and then binge watched them. And then watched “The Aftershow” on Youtube. I was devastated, it has scarred me for life and I’m in love. Milo Ventimiglia and Mandy Moore were unbelievably talented in the last episode and Sterling K Brown made me had emotions I didn’t even know human were capable of feeling. Can’t wait for season 2. I’ll be crying.

  • The Bachelor Finale

58472a417ca5765f5638b6c7_o_f_v1I spoke about this at length in a recent post and the 12 weeks I’ve spent with the bachelor nation watching the show was the weirdest, most amazing ever. It’s the most ridiculous programm I’ve seen in my life and italian television is just as bad.

  • Grey’s Anatomy s13e16: “Who Is He (And What Is He to You)?”

I’ve been regularly watching Grey’s Anatomy for 3 years now and this episode finally resembled the greatness of the show’s earlier seasons. After Cristina and Derek’s departure (and previously Mark and Lexie’s) the show felt weird. But this episode was finally GOOD. Jesse Williams isn’t only a good looking person and an involved activist, he is pretty talented and he finally had the chance to shine. His presence on the screen was spectacular, captivating and graceful. I already liked him, but it was after this interview with Trevor Noah on “The Daily Show” that I started appreciating him more. The episode itself was great, full of drama, love, complicated relationship. One of the best “on the character” focus-episode they have produced.

This next thing is not television related and it’s a book.

  • The Hating Game

I don’t even know how I found out about this book, but I’m so glad I did. This is exactly the chick-flic that I LOVE! It’s not dumb like most of them, there are no sexist messages, the story itself is not something revolutionary and particularly new but I read it in 2 days. To give a brief summary, the story is about Lucy and Joshua, two co-workers who despise each other but are both up for the same promotion. But as they try to win the hating game, they might discover that they don’t dislike each other that much.

At times there are cliché moments and some typical romantic stuff, but I absolutely loved it. There is no bullshit insta-love, no unnecessary sexy times, no soul mate shit. If they don’t make this into a movie, Hollywood is losing a great opportunity for a brilliant brand new rom-com. PLEASE MAKE IT INTO A MOVIE! OR EVEN BETTER, A TV SERIE! PLEASE!


That’s it! These were my non-beauty related things I loved during the month of March. To see what I’ve been loving makeup-wise, here is the link for the blog post!

Hope you enjoyed this! Have a lovely day!

Georgia

February 2017 Wrap-up: Books I’ve Read

Here I am again with another monthly wrap-up. I’m late on publishing this post, but I kind of forgot that I started writing it. I’m all over the place at the moment.

BTW, I never thought I would enjoy doing something like this, but I couldn’t wait for the end of February to publish this post.

On my goodreads page I set the goal of reading 30 books in 2017, but as of now I’m at 11 and we are only 2 months into the year! I’m really happy I found my way back into reading!

Hope you like my wrap-up!


26114135It took me ages to figure out my thoughts on this book. Most of the time while reading this, I was appalled. I know the book stirred up some controversies but you need to understand why the author decided to tell us this heart-breaking story. Yes, it’s about an inappropriate relationship between an adult and a child but it’s so much more than that.

Wavy is the daughter of two drug dealers and Kellen is the thug that works with her father and although absolutely unhealthy, the relationship was touching. It wasn’t ugly. Well, it was, but not because the feelings shared between them weren’t true.
It’s a very sad story. It won’t make you cry but it will leave a sadness inside of you.

The title perfectly summons up the book: the relationship is ugly, the world is ugly, but in all of this ugliness, there are also wonderful (although wrong) things.
It’s very well-written, intriguing and fast-paced… I absolutely enjoyed it.

I love cheesy romantic books. It’s like watching “The Bachelor”: the only thing you do if laugh at the girls and say: “Oh Honey!”

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This book was basically an R-Rated version of Ezra and Aria’s relationship on Pretty Little Liars.

This was a nice surprise. It’s a story of love, lust, attraction and sex. A LOT OF SEX.
Apparently, I didn’t notice the “erotic” label… I’ve never read an erotic novel before and I wasn’t completely comfortable with it: I just wasn’t expecting it! And I felt it was sometimes unnecessary: ok, we get it. They are REALLY into each other!

But after the unnecessary sex and frankly the weird and unexplained thing with the druglord, I really enjoyed it! If you are looking for an erotic romance that’s not dull or stupid or badly written, this is for you!

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I had to read this for Uni and… well, German literature isn’t easy.

I really have no more things to say so…

 

 

 

30841109I watched the TV series when it came out in September and I got really into it and this is the book version.

I expected it to have a few difference from the tv show, but it was basically identical. Not that I’m complaining, but I had already seen the show so at times I was a bit bored.

If you haven’t managed to catch the series from ITV and you want to know about the first years of Victoria as the Queen of England.

28696602I found this book by accident. It was a tweet by Variety.com about Shonda Rhimes acquiring the rights to produce a comedy based on this book. And I decided to read it so I could have an idea of what to expect.

I liked it. It talks about social media, racism, people’s obsession with the digital world and more. Luvvie says some brutal truths and gives honest opinions. She speaks about being a black woman in America and she teaches us all lessons on social indifference.

At times I found it a bit boring and not entertaining, but it is definitely worth reading.


I hope you liked my brief reviews! I had the best reading months, mainly because I enjoyed almost all of them!

Talk to you soon!

Georgia     🙂

 

 

 

January Wrap-up: Books I’ve Read

I’ve never done anything like this before, so bear with me. In my Goodreads “2017 Reading Challenge” I put 30 books. I was being optimistic because last year I barely managed to get 20 done.

Since joining the website and subscribing to a few people on YouTube, I’ve been trying to get back into reading, because when I was little I used to LOVE reading. I read everything I could get my hands on, but ever since I started (and also finished) high school I never felt like it.

If you look through my blog, you can clearly see that one of my passions is television, but I want to get back to the written words.

In the month of January, I managed to read 3 books. And I’m pretty happy with that.

  • Harry Potter and the Cursed Child by J.K. Rowling29069989

Even though I’m a huuuuuuge Harry Potter fan, I didn’t read the book straight away. I had heard some opinion (mainly disappointed reviews) and I didn’t want it to ruin everything. I gave it 3/5 stars, just because it was Harry Potter. But frankly, it felt like reading a badly written FanFiction. I think it doesn’t have the same depth and the same brilliance of the other 7. BUT, it was a screenplay. There are no descriptions, no context… Had I seen the play in London, I probably would have liked it more.

Just like I do when a TV series has an ending I don’t like, I’ll pretend this book doesn’t exist.

Sorry J.K. Still love you. ❤ ❤ ❤

  • 2928531Animal Farm by George Orwell

This book was recommended to me by the boy I’m tutoring and I really liked it! It’s about a group of animal that live on a farm and their decision to overthrow the owner and become independent.

It’s about dictatorships, democracy and rebellion… but the main characters are animals. It’s definitely something weird, but the metaphor is powerful. By the end of the book, you realize how easy it is to shift from one oppressive regime to another.

It’s not very long, it has a hundred pages but it’s an absolute must.

  • Scrappy Little Nobody by Anna Kendrick 29868610

I love Anna Kendrick. I have seen a good amount of the movies she has made, so I was really interested in her book. It’s my third “celebrity/actor-book” (Modern Romance by Aziz Ansari and Yes, Please by Amy Poehler) and I was surprised! As I wrote in my review, there are a lot of stories about her starting out as a child-actor and cool behind-the-scenes anecdotes. That was what I loved the most about it. Seeing what is it like to be a movie star, dealing with fashion and award shows.

If you’re interested in these kind of things, and you like Anna Kendrick, definitely a book I’d recommend!


Hope you liked this post! I’m also more than half way through “The Shining” by Stephen King, but it’s so long and difficult to read. At least for me.

Let me know if you have any recommendations for me!

Georgia   🙂