The 1st Four Seasons of Homeland Completely Destroyed Me

I have been a fan of Homeland since January 2013. Season 2 had just come out and as a naive 16-year-old, I thought: “Let’s give it a go.”

What I didn’t know was that I’d be absolutely destroyed by this show. It broke my heart. Homeland holds a special place in my heart, in fact, I’m still watching it and still enjoying.

That being said, after season 5 (which terrified me to my core), I was not as invested as I had previously been and I could not empathize with Carrie as I did before.

It’s so intense

From the moment I saw the pilot, I knew I would love this show. You know that feeling when you start a Tv show, something snaps and you know you’re going to absolutely love it?

I had that. I felt it.

The show was so intense and engaging I could not take my eyes off of it. The high stakes of Carrie’s life and the mess she had gotten herself into pulled me in.

Carrie and Brody

This. This is the cause of my heart-ache. Carrie and Brody’s relationship consumed me and left me empty.

Damian Lewis in Homeland (2011)

I’ve been wracking my brain trying to come up with a reason why the relationship affected me so much: was it because it was a “forbidden” relationship? Was it because they were awful people who found each other? Was it because of its ambiguity?

I just don’t know.

Was he or wasn’t he?

Claire Danes and Damian Lewis in Homeland (2011)

What made me fall in love with Homeland’s first four seasons was because of the writing.


We never knew. For three seasons we wondered whether Nicholas Brody was a traitor…

You’re a disgrace to your nation, Sergeant Nicholas Brody. You’re a traitor and a terrorist. And now it’s time you pay for that.

or someone who got caught up in it.

As soon as I hear the word traitor, I get into character as Carrie and I say that line. I typed it. From memory. I did not look it up.

Brody’s ambiguity and his contrasting actions made for one of the best characters ever written.

Carrie’s Mental Health Journey

Claire Danes in Homeland (2011)

Carrie’s struggle with mental health is a separate character, just like when people say that NYC is like a 5th main character in Sex and The City.

From season 1 onwards, her mental health rapidly declines and I believe it will eventually destroy her, along with her self-destructive actions.

Peter Quinn

Last but not least, Peter Quinn. One of Homeland’s best characters, with the best development storyline.

I loved Peter. So much.

He is one of those characters who you can’t stand at the beginning because of how much of a dick he is, and then you fall completely and utterly in love with him.

Claire Danes and Rupert Friend in Homeland (2011)

The season 4 finale, “Long Time Coming“, was devastating to me. Devastating. I can’t even talk about season 5. I can’t. I CRIED. It was incredibly emotional and so well written. I wanted him and Carrie to be together. I wanted that more than I wanted anything to happen on the show. They were meant to be together. They could help balance each other out. I can’t-…

Claire Danes and Rupert Friend in Homeland (2011)

Rupert Friend was unbelievably amazing as Quinn, whose story was incredibly sad and heartbreaking. He was a hitman who slowly developed a conscience only to get back into his routine self-destructive behavior.

My best friend and I both have a soft spot for this show and we often reminisce on how much we miss it and how much it completely shattered our hearts. I have such great memories associated with Homeland because it was a fundamental part of our friendship and it brought us even closer together.

Have you seen Homeland? Off the top of your head, name Homeland’s best episode! Leave me a comment and let me know, please!

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