I have been wearing makeup for about 3-4 years… Seriously wearing it, not just mascara, eyeliner and the wrong shade of foundation.
I started with some brown and pink eyeshadow and a light pink lipstick and then I bought my first proper bright colour.
It took me a while to actually put it on and go outside. I felt like everybody was staring at me, judging me. I love wearing lipstick but the creepy sensation of everybody looking at me is almost unbearable.
BUT as I grew older, I started to care less. If I want to wear a bright lipstick, why should I feel uncomfortable? Altough the city I live in has 20.000 citizens, it still has a small-town mentality. It’s provincial, everybody comments of everybody’s looks, clothes and personality. And I am perfectly aware that my family does it too.
Two years ago I decided to stop caring AT ALL and started wearing the lipsticks I had splurged so much of my money on.
And I discovered that the feeling of everyone staring at you is just a product of my imagination. Let’s be real: why would anyone stare at me in the middle of the city centre? We are so self-centred so we think that if we are wearing something different than usual, people will notice it. THEY JUST WON’T!
Also, wearing bold colours is an incredible conficence booster. I feel more empowered and happier in my own skin… For me, makeup is a way to be creative and play with different colours and ultimately, have some fun.
P.s. I wrote this before reading this beautiful article “I wear my war paint fo me” about wearing makeup that the lovely blog contemporarywomen.org has published. I urge you to go check it out because it’s so much better than mine! Truly inspiring!